I watched Four Weddings and A Funeral again last night. OK, Hugh Grant can totally win me over with that stuttering bashful Englishman thing, regardless of how awful he seems to be in real life. I prefer to think of him as his screen characters and ignore the rest. What got me at this viewing was how incredibly sexy John Hannah's Scottish acent is.

I bawled like a baby at the funeral part, but I still can't be happy at the ending. (SPOILER ALERT) I remember my outrage at it the first time I saw the movie. I know you're supposed to be happy that Grant and Andie MacDowell finally get together, but really he leaves that poor girl at the altar! I can't sympathize with anyone who would do that. It was horrible.

Just about every woman I know who's over 26 or so has the same attitude about food. It' sort of a constant diet -- they're cognizant of every bite that goes into their mouths, they all know calories, fat content and Weight Watchers points of any possible meal. That doesn't mean that they don't eat -- it's just that everything they do eat is evaluated first. And it means that they frequently make choices like "I want the lobster bisque, but I'll get the chicken broth instead, I can't have a cream soup and get dessert." or "If I order a salad and skip the dressing, and then go the gym, it will make up for the cheesecake I had last night." Women don't all order dressing on the side because they don't like it, they order it that way because they're hoping tehy can cut out a few calories.

One of the most, hm, liberating things about being pregnant is that it frees you from that guilt. You can say "Yes, I'll have the creamed spinach with that," because after all, cream has calcium it's good for the baby! And red meat is protein! The day my OB said I should have some ice cream a few times a week I almost kissed him.

Which is why the following foods are so guilt-inducing that I only allow myself to have when pregnant.

Peanut butter toast
Lightly toast one slice wheat bread -- just enough to make it a little firm.

Spread with peanut butter.

Sprinkle brown sugar and cinnamon on top.

Bake at 250 until sugar has melted slightly.

Careful when eating-- the peanut butter gets very hot, but it's best to eat when it's still warm and gooey.

Corn soup
Mix one can of creamed corn with half a can of milk and half a can of cream.

Slowly simmer.

When ready to serve, float a pat of butter on top.

You can make this with all milk, and even with skim milk if you want it to be guilt free, but it's way better with cream.